Black Droplets of Enchantress Energy

Black droplets of Enchantress energy, roll down her face as she feels the confusion of her place on this planet.

What is my purpose ? Why don't you get me ? Why don't I get myself ? What's happening to me?

... Silence....

No answer ...

But that is the Answer...

Stillness.

How can she find stillness in the polarity and pull of two truths? - The truth of knowing her purpose and the truth of the unbearable fear of not knowing what will happen next.

She knows neither to be true right now.

She feels that searching has done her no good, but is safe because well, what else is there?

Avoidance is safe because well, what else is there ?

She's terrified of not knowing what will happen next, and yet, there is something that is drawing her to this profound change.

She has no idea what this change is, but the crows keep following her. 

Sending her messages of death

With death, comes New beginnings

How will she know when to take this opportunity to let go ?

What if she misses it ? 

How does she let go ?

She's tried .... She's tired ....Should she try harder ?

She reads of ways to heal, and "how" to surrender, she has tried it  - it doesn't work..

Or maybe she has not tried yet. 

There is no "How" to Surrender.

But who made this assumption,

You're truth isn't that same as hers right now in this Enchantress phase...

She's afraid 

What if this change leaves behind something valuable in her identification ? 

Or worse, what if nothing good comes if she lets go?

She's afraid

She wants to write something uplifting, after all, that is what they expect of her.

But that is not her truth right now,

Her truth is sadness.  It is confusion.

It is Destruction and it is Darkness. 

So I guess we're wondering where this is going ...

...

She doesn't know either.

But maybe that is what she must welcome in.

The Unknown.

 

She is not too sure if the unknown will take care of her, if she will be able to keep her head up, or if she will still be on this journey as a Moon Goddess...

If she quits, it wouldn't be the first time.

She's angry

Life is not simple, life is dark for her right now.

The Enchantress energies are creative and destruction, are internally loud and is impossible to ignore. 

Where to put these energies she asks?

"Feel them" they say 

"I can't any longer" she says back

So what does she do now ? 

"Just be Sarah" they say to her.

Black droplets of Enchantress energy, roll down her face as she feels the confusion of her place on this planet.


By: Sarah Tynes